We usually praise taxi drivers when they swerve in from the center lane and cut into the left lane to pick us up don’t we? Now, I curse any taxi driver who does that because simply put, I was driving on the left lane when a smart taxi driver decided to cut into my lane and pick up a passenger. Well it was nothing much. I just nearly caused an accident after jamming the break with extreme force. Balls! Nothing much my balls! Well I’m glad it wasn’t my fault or anything but it did attract some unwanted attention.

Then after driving, which was at 8.30, I went to the police station to collect my old computer back! Age has caught up with it though being chucked away in that storeroom for years and it’s turned yellow. Oh well, I’m lucky I have my lap top now and my dad says he’ll find a way to use the old com. Good luck to him. Thanks a bunch Ben for helping me carry the stuff. I couldn’t have done it without you.

Then my baby girl came over to my place and she gave me her “sorry present” which was this card with a super-ly sweet poem at the back! You think that’s all? NO! The front had this copper wire folded into the words “I LOVE YOU” how sweet is that? I mean seriously no girl has ever done that for me before and no words can describe the waves of happiness that swept through my entire being when I read the poem. Thanks for everything baby! You’re the best! You make my life so bright and colorful and happy and fun and everything else that’s positive!

Okay before I get ahead of myself and start jumping around in ecstasy I better continue. So we went to watch “the messengers” which wasn’t really great but had a lot of shocking parts. My girl said something cute in the show though “Baby, if you scare me I’ll get angry with you” HAHA I wasn’t intending on scaring her though. Then we went for confession at church together and headed to the park next to her condo. We sat at the exact same spot that we first told each other about our feelings for each other and we reminisced about the past 6 months and our constant and growing love for each other. It was really nice just sitting there with her lying on my lap and just talking about everything. I mean that’s what a good girlfriend is about right? Being your lover and your best friend and that is what she totally is! N I love her for it! *jumps jumps jumps*


Last night was productive. Jared and Gerard visited my place and we had a nice long talk about everything and of course draining down a mouth of whiskey with coke every once in awhile during the process. My girl felt a little neglected by me because most of the time when she wants to talk to me at night, I’m with friends and I know it can be frustrating at times but I do try to talk to you as long as I can baby! It won’t happen that frequently anymore k?

Probably hit the sacks at around 8am and had to wake up at 9am to wake my gal up. Knowing how long she takes to doll herself up, I decided to sleep a lil longer with that phrase “just 15 more minutes” which led to 2 hours mind you. Of course she got a lil mad and everything but I was really tired and when it comes to her, I don’t usually let this sort of thing happen.

Anyhow, the sun was great when we started tanning! Just lay on the tanning benches and talked about anything and took loads of pictures. She’s still sleeping as I type so I’ll probably get the pictures from her later or something. It was really fun and I want to do it again sometime soon. It was great to just bask under the sun with her company. I really couldn’t ask for more.


The word “bliss” is a word which is not commonly used in present day. I’ve yet to come across a friend or acquaintance who has used the word bliss in any of our conversations. Well I guess I’m digressing but the word “bliss” means a state of perfect untroubled happiness. I clearly fall under that category at the moment and I could not ask for more or I’d be a greedy man. With the minor exception of that sad excuse of a guy, yes I clearly fall under that category and I’m proud to proclaim it to the world!

Why? Well I assume you’ve got me all figured out and I don’t doubt you’re powers of deduction but it defeats the purpose of me blogging now would it? The whole reason leads down to one person in the long run but obviously I’m not an ingrate who forgets his friends. So that one person would be my darling girlfriend. She’s handled her temperamental boyfriend with much patience and understanding and I thank you for it baby! Over the past week or so, I’ve been experiencing pangs of jealousy and it would have eaten me internally if she had not reassured me in her own way and made me feel considerably better. Jealousy is a dangerous thing. If not handled with care, something might break and being an ignoramus at the start of relationship, I didn’t really understand what it was or how to deal with it until it hit me squarely in the face. I feel immense guilt at how I treated her when she was feeling the exact same thing I felt. I treated it with disdain and got exasperated at how she was feeling but now I know that it takes more than words to soothe the beast called jealousy and I’ll never leave you alone okay baby?

These two days have been rather tiring but yet extremely fun I must say. Just yesterday my girl and I went to watch Teenage mutant ninja turtles and just a note to eager people intending to watch it; the storyline is a let down but the animation is wicked! So you do the pros and cons on whether it’s worth watching. I wanted to watch it mainly because as a young kid I loved the turtles but it was a let down. What matters though was that I enjoyed my time with my girl. Just before the movie, we visited the new arcade at Junction 8 and played the whacky shooter game. She also bought me this really funky big headed wooden boy and she got the girl version and its hanging on my phone as we speak. Thanks baby!

In the night, like all normal girlfriends, she had to head home and I met Jared (who has passed his driving license by the way. So if you haven’t congratulated him, do so now.) we drove to Melvin’s house to play a few games of audition before sending Gail home and heading down to Seletar Reservoir to drink and have a rather fruitful chat. We probably headed home around 5 in the morning feeling weary and all.

As for today, I met with my girl again at around 11. She said her dad was fetching her to Junction 8 and I was seriously wondering like why couldn’t we have gone together and she told me to leave the house at 10.45 when her dad was fetching her at 10.30. So I was rather grumpy when I arrived at the station. I called her and she claimed that she was sitting at KFC and upon reaching there, I couldn’t find her anywhere. So I called her once again and I was rather irritated but when she reached she had this big plastic bag with this soft toy dog in it! I mean obviously I couldn’t help but smile right? It also came complete with a cute card that said “I love you” (the rest are for my viewing pleasure only) Just the day before while we were walking around Junction 8 I saw the dog and told her that this was the kind of material I like a soft toy to have and she bought it for me today! I love you baby! Like so so so much! Then, we went to Bugis and walked around the mall for like many hours (to me) My feet were aching by the time we sat down at KFC to eat. She bought like a pink wallet for her sister’s friend’s birthday present and a pair of sunglasses which totally looks cool on her…. and me. LOL! Then we went to Bugis Street and she bought this dark brown bag which I personally said was nice compared to the rest of the bags on which she sought my opinion and yes she bought it. At this point, my feet were like killing me so we headed home.

It’s been a great day but what am I saying? Everyday spent with her is a great day even though there are arguments and quarrels but the best thing about it is that we’re both trying very hard to work it out and fight our inner battles to better understand and suit each other and that is the spirit to a long and ever lasting relationship right baby?






i can't sleep...

I feel like I can't do anything...

No one to talk to...

These thoughts are driving me crazy

I trust you...

I don't want the same thing to happen to me...

I love you....


FUCKER! if you ever read this which i hope you will..... I hope you rot in hell... U hear me? Don't screw around with me... the only reason why you're not dead is cuz i'm a nice guy.. Hands off you hear me! HANDS OFF! You think you're god's gift to women? All SHUAI and everything... I spit on ur picture and I'd spit on your face if you give me the chance. Don't think I don't realize your fucking plan... u snide son of a bitch... Go screw around with some other gal and destroy some other guy's life for all i care... FUCK YOU understand! FUCK YOU! So what if you play basketball? So what if you're in JC? So what if you're good looking? It all doesn't matter if you don't have the fucking balls to talk to me and say what you feel in my fucking face... You hide at the side waiting for your chance.... I swear to GOD... if you don't come out soon and continue slipping and sliding around like FUCKING SNAKE, i'll pull you out and castrate you so that your children, and your children's children will not be from your fucking family line.

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pop goes my heart......


Alright its high time I stopped being lazy and start blogging bout the trip since the girls already did so. I'll give a more detailed version though... the pictures will have to wait cuz my girl and Sarah are still holding on to them... send them soon ok? All in all, I would say we had a very eventful and enriching trip... it was certainly an experience to all of us... especially me cuz this would be my first time going on a trip with friends... what more my girlfriend.

Day 1

I'd say that spirits were rather high and everyone was looking forward to our trip.. Jared, Melvin and I cracking silly jokes as usual while the girls took pictures... I mean its not like we didn't join in the photo taking... There's a cam whore in all of us... yes... even you the fat dude who's picking his nose right now and looking at this. See I was thinking bout something amazing on the ferry ride there... which was about 2 hours long mind you... You see, Bintan is like 1 hour behind Singapore time right? so.... if we took 2 hours to get there, wouldn't it be that we took 1 hour to get there instead? and then the ferry ride back would have taken 3 hours right? I voiced my opinions to the rest but I got shot down instead... sigh... but its rather interesting no?

Oh wells... upon our arrival, things looked rather shabby... it was like slum city man... everyone was just staring at you and eyeing you like you did something wrong.. or they might have been thinking that we looked good to murder or smth... I swear.. it was rather scary... I held on to my lover's hand and didn't let go... one more thing bout Bintan is the weather... my gosh its like super hot there but good for tanning... and no I didn't get a tan.

We took another boat ride to our kelong resort and at least there was air con in our rooms! The resort however looked a lil dead to me... there were very lil people around and it just gave it a creepy feeling. I cast that thought aside though cuz I was with my girl and nothing could spoil that mood. Melvin was rather pitiful though... I mean he was the odd one out being alone and all and he had a room all by himself as well.. so we trooped to his room after getting aqquainted with our respective rooms first of course and we played cards. We were also supposed to eat dinner at the resort at first but someone said that we should go to the mainland and eat so at around 7 plus? We took a boat to the mainland and seriously, the streets there aren't really lit properly and all and there are like people staring at you from alleys and shop houses so suddenly we seem all alone and vulnerable. Okay I admit, I was scared I'd get mugged or something cuz I brought like close to 1 million rupiah... EH I MADE MY FIRST MILLION WHEN I WAS 18!!!! haha ok not funny but yea it was freaky and I kept getting hallucinations bout some of them knocking me out and disrespecting my girlfriend... so I kept a tight hold on her and made sure she did not leave my sight.

We ate dinner at this coffee shop that was shoing "the arena" haha they have channel 5 there people! The reception was quite clear as well.... but that's not important. What's important is dinner man... I swear dinner was GREAT!!! for like 200 000 rupiah or was it cheaper? We had like Chilli Crab, Hot Plate Tofu, Fish Steamboat, Sambal KangKong, Baby Kai Lan and rice... that's like ABOUT 40 bucks for 5 people and making them all FULL!!! Can you believe that shit? And we're not talking bout low grade kinda stuff... it was genuinely good food!

Sleeping wasn't that difficult... I mean I don't usually sleep so early but when there's nothing to do and nothing to watch on tv, you tend to end up feeling rather sleepy in the end. So I slept with my baby girl in my arms, feeling like this was the best day of my life.

Day 2

Gosh rather long entry this is gonna be no? Oh well I have time so I'll just rant and rant and rant. Day 2 was like the most tiring day of all... I swear. I mean we had fun definitely but it was rather tiring cuz on this day we went SHOPPING!

We woke up like rather late.. As in Jamie and I... she being she and I being I... We also had a tour guide who was like super nice and all and I tried conversing with him in english and by far, he has like the best command in english from all the commoners I've seen. We went to two malls and bought a couple of stuff... I bought a belt and a Levi's t shirt. Baby bought me a pair of adidas sunglasses... THANKS BABY... its like super cool la... and I gave her frequent surprises every now and then... which I know she's super happy about... I love you!!! She also bought a handbag for her mom and a pair of jeans for herself... Melvin bought like this couple bear thingy for Gail... Later on I saw this Levi's Belt and I cursed myself for buying the belt that I bought... now when I look at it I think its rather ugly but oh well i'm still gonna wear it cuz I bought it... haha and my girlfriend's bargaining skills were put to the test there haha I kept asking her to bargain for me... *grinz* it usually went down by 10000 rupiah or so... unless some bastard told you "fixed price" then you stared at the fella and said "OKAY..!" lol... I also bought like 2 animes which the others said was stupid cuz I could get checked by customs. Oh well since when did I care bout rules anyway?

Oh for lunch we ate at like KFC... they only have one in Tanjong Pinang... and its like the grandest building there... They still sell the Twister down there but they don't have cheese fries and they don't have pop corn chicken nor do they have whipped potato... instead your meal comes with the chicken and a drink and a ball of rice. Cool huh?

After everything was done and all, we headed back to our resort and just waited for dinner time. Dinner was cool I mean the food wasn't that great and this time it cost bout 300 000 plus cuz I ordered a bottle of wine... I mean seriously, its so difficult to find alcohol there and the mood was so nice cuz like they tried to give us this "fine dining by the sea" atmosphere which was rather romantic so I thought wine would be a good drink for the occassion... but nah in the end I drank like most of it... They had karaoke there as well and we sung to our hearts content... this time we had like butter prawns, prawn omellete, sambal kankong and steam fish (can't really remember much cuz it wasn't that great)

After dinner we just went straight to bed... seriously it was a damn shaggadalic day so sleep didn't come much of a problem be it if there was something to do or not.

Day 3

We checked out to book into the hotel that we were supposed to be staying on day 4 cuz we just felt like it and it would be less of a bother to go to the mainland. The hotel was cool I mean the air con was like really cold but they didn't have a bath tub... oh well beggars can't be choosers as quoted from Jared the wise. The tv reception was good and I spent quite a long while watching old flicks on HBO.... the food at the restaurant below was good as well.. I mean it couldn't beat the first day but yea it was quite alright... Oh did I mention that I was smoking like crazy? I mean seriously one pack there is like less than 2 bucks!!! What the hell man.... smoke fest!!! much to the displeasure of my girlfriend of course but its just once in awhile k baby?

This day was fun as well cuz we went for a massage... not the dirty kind of massage of course! Really relaxing stuff... Baby and I had the couple room and we got a massage together... it cost like a mere 16 bucks compared to a 40 dollar one in s'pore... madness... FUCK THE TAX... okay sorry for my outburst. Sarah and Jared took a longer time cuz they bought some special package which included some exfoliatiing bath thing... So we took the liberty to go to the nearby mall and look around for stuff... this mall was rather disappointing however cuz they didn't really have much to offer... like most of the t shirts were all very indo ah beng kinda style and my girlfriend didn't approve... but at least there was an arcade which was super stuffy and what made it worse was that she and I played DDR together looking like two loving idiots while melvin just watched.

Waiting for them was like super long... we even had time to eat at this place called "charlie's chicken" and baby stole the old coke bottle which we didn't noe we had to give back. Charlie's Chicken is something like KFC but I don't know there's something missing... oh well but it was nice anyways.

After that we just felt like taking a swim in the pool but it was filled with moss and mosquitoes so Jared, Melvin and I were the only ones ending up playing in the baby pool for awhile (Jamie and Sarah were watching of course) before going up to bathe. For dinner, we ordered room service and the food was once again quite good... I had a beef burger and I'm sorry I never offered you more baby!!! she also ordered pepper crab, sambal kangkong and I added a mee goreng... OBVIOUSLY we didn't manage to finish all of it and we messed up the unused bed pretty badly I must say...

Guess what happens next??? SLEEP!!!! I gotta say that with that kinda lifestyle there, I really needed the jog that I just went for... I think i gained weight.. oh well what the heck so long as my baby loves me....

Day 4

We decided to cut our trip short due to overwhelming expenses... our lifestyle was too lavish there I guess... but there's a catch. Sarah's dad came over... and caught us all. Heh Long story and I'm not gonna say it but I didn't dare look at him in the eye... Thank god for the sunglasses... Oh and Baby... I will never ever react the way I did on this day ever again... I remember your reaction and then I feel a pang in my heart... I feel guilt and I feel angry with myself. I swear I'll change okay? No matter how long it takes, I'll change.. cuz I love you and I don't wanna see you sad or feel that I'm a lousy guy for you when I'm angry or anything... I'm sorry...

Alright so the boat ride back seemed longer than it was when we went there (my theory works right?) Oh well I was also thinking that we were going back to reality and out of our fantasy "pre-honeymoon" and the feeling was not that great... it was heaven to be like with her for 4 days and all... with no care in the world.. what time to go back... what time to sleep... no restrictions... no distractions... the world revolved around us and of course jared, sarah and melvin... but to me it was just mainly Jamie and I and it felt great!!! Baby, I meant what I sang in I swear okay? We'll have more pre honeymoons in the future k??!! SEPT SEPT SEPT!!!

Yea that's basically how the trip went and all.. this is like a major long post but heck... read to your hearts content... My lover fell asleep without telling me... sigh... call me when you wake up k babe? Love ya!

To sarah , melvin and jared.... It was great spending those 4 days with ya! I hope that we can have more of these kinda things in the future... Thanks for everything Sarah... sorry you got into trouble and all... and to my brothers from another mother... we're gonna be buds for life man... we've come this far already... I don't see why we can't last another 30 years! (cuz I think I'm gonna die young... lol)

Love ya all man.... especially you girlfriend!






just woke up from a very very long sleep.

I really deseve that amount of sleep. Like seriously..... now I just wished I had slept instead. Cuz you noe when you sleep, you don't think so much... yea i think sleep's like the best option.

I'm still waiting for you.... always will.

I am honey Barney : DDDD !
I love __Jamie__. my GIRLFRIEND<3
26/07/88
RP student (Dip in New Media)
Gardens boy

New slippers
A new bag for school
My own professional camera to take vids
A studio
To be recongnised as local talent one day
A lean body
A stable income lol
More Clothes
Driving license
A car - Honda Civic? Mitsubishi Lancer? Toyota Celica? woo wee!
My own house with my very own lava lamp
Travel overseas with the dudes
Cash man! LOADS of it
Stop smoking.. tough man TOUGH!
An alsatian (basically a handsome dog)
MAn Utd to win the EPL
The next Harry Potter book to come out
A less creaky bed
A better looking room
To hold YOU<3 in my arms every minute!
To always see that smile on HER<3 face



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