hello everyone! this is me... my life is pretty much fucked at the moment... i thought fallin down was bad.. but no... someone up there hates me jus abit more to allow my already weakened body to suffer food poisoning... sheesh... well no big deal... i'll get better sooner or later.... but seriously.. i've been wonderin these many nights... why am i so sway? like loads of shit happens to jus me.... n y is that? wad is my purpose in life? geez... talk bout bein deep... if i was meant to come to the world to suffer in the long run then y be born at all right? Jesus did that cuz he wanted to save ppl.... i dun see how fallin down n not bein able to smile will save people! gosh...
oh wadeva the case is.... nth much has been happenin in my alreadi screwed up life.... i've jus been bumming around n eating alot... gettin fat... not carin at all how i look no more.... cuz everyday when u wake up n u look at urself in the mirror n u try n smile but u can't, it becomes depressin.... I really need recovery fast.... I long for it.... I jus want to be NORMAL again.... can't god hear me? Everyday is a living hell for me.... n i'll have to endure it for another year??? what e fuck did i do to deserve something like this? So many questions but NO answers.... well you've smite me o mighty smiter.... happy now?
11:24 PM
James Chan.
I am honey Barney : DDDD !
I love __Jamie__. my GIRLFRIEND<3
26/07/88
RP student (Dip in New Media)
Gardens boy
Unconditional desires.
New slippers
A new bag for school
My own professional camera to take vids
A studio
To be recongnised as local talent one day
A lean body
A stable income lol
More Clothes
Driving license
A car - Honda Civic? Mitsubishi Lancer? Toyota Celica? woo wee!
My own house with my very own lava lamp
Travel overseas with the dudes
Cash man! LOADS of it
Stop smoking.. tough man TOUGH!
An alsatian (basically a handsome dog)
MAn Utd to win the EPL
The next Harry Potter book to come out
A less creaky bed
A better looking room
To hold YOU<3 in my arms every minute!
To always see that smile on HER<3 face
