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Saturday, December 31, 2005
Another year's passing by (ain't i thankful for that)... i just want to forget bout this whole year.. n wished it didn't happen. Well i'm definitely determined bout one thing.. i aint gonna continue my lifestyle like this year.... If i do intend to be given a chance i shall have to get my act together like Rynette said and maybe i'll get a shot at it...Do you people think changing for a girl is stupid.... i was one of those people who reckon it was the stupidest thing to do. N technically it still is.. cuz u can only change for youself... but sometimes liking someone can make a person do stupid things. But wad if u feel that the gal/guy is really worth it? Won't you wanna like give up the world jus for her? this feelings thing is rather confusing... and i ain't no love guru.N strangely enough my life has been movin at a slow pace now... rather than last time... i jus enjoy sittin down at the coffee shop or below my void deck talkin with gerard or mike or whoever... away from the clubbing and all the nonsense... *sighs* gettin old gettin old.... On a final note... i guess i'll be goin back to Nanyang Poly... gonnna like try n register next wk... tryin hard for marketing... if i can't get into marketing... i really dunno where to go... i'm not an engineerin type of person... nor am i an IT whiz... think i should go to army? but aft army i'll have to retake o levels... like WHOA... no way no way... think i'll jus go to nursin or smth.. unless some other ppl have other opinions... i'll listen. Happy New Year everyone!!!!
4:30 PM
Sunday, December 25, 2005
seasons greetings! Merry chirstmas to all you people out there! I'm really stoned now.... came back at like 7 am aft spendin the night out with gerard, mike, shaun n brown. We were at the park when it started to rain cats n dogs.. n boy was it chilly in there... real chilly... sheesh... great crhistmas weather....Seems like this christmas is kinda dull... i mean it seemed more fun in previous years.. something's missin this christmas... n it's the friggin christmas spirit.. it has somehow managed to slip past n it jus felt like any other day to me.. Oh yea and don't you think that midnight mass has become somewhat or a facade to some people? it's more of a fashion statement than a time of reverence... oh well... teenagers.... I'm fast leavin my teenage years behind *grinz* i'm gettin old.... Really can't believe that i can get my driver's license next year.. seems like ages ago i wanted to drive n now it's like so near.Alright i'll just enjoy chirstmas (what's left of it) and if whoever wants to emo go ahead... whoever wants to suck up to whoever go ahead... pls note that i'm losin hope on u guys alreadi... get ur friggin act together.. period.
3:40 PM
Saturday, December 17, 2005
hello everyone! this is me... my life is pretty much fucked at the moment... i thought fallin down was bad.. but no... someone up there hates me jus abit more to allow my already weakened body to suffer food poisoning... sheesh... well no big deal... i'll get better sooner or later.... but seriously.. i've been wonderin these many nights... why am i so sway? like loads of shit happens to jus me.... n y is that? wad is my purpose in life? geez... talk bout bein deep... if i was meant to come to the world to suffer in the long run then y be born at all right? Jesus did that cuz he wanted to save ppl.... i dun see how fallin down n not bein able to smile will save people! gosh... oh wadeva the case is.... nth much has been happenin in my alreadi screwed up life.... i've jus been bumming around n eating alot... gettin fat... not carin at all how i look no more.... cuz everyday when u wake up n u look at urself in the mirror n u try n smile but u can't, it becomes depressin.... I really need recovery fast.... I long for it.... I jus want to be NORMAL again.... can't god hear me? Everyday is a living hell for me.... n i'll have to endure it for another year??? what e fuck did i do to deserve something like this? So many questions but NO answers.... well you've smite me o mighty smiter.... happy now?
11:24 PM
Friday, December 09, 2005
all right, this is for all you people who bother themselves with details... *grinz* nah just kidding... alright to the people who do not know yet, I've just been discharged from Tan Tock Seng Hospital.. (now here comes the big WHY)... let's jus say drinkin tends to make u do things u normally wouldn't do in sane circumstances and i agreed to play a game which resulted with me fallin hard on the concrete floor and hitting the back of my head. Which meant alot of blood and a fair bit of shock involved.... Yea... my frenz told me that i bled alot n i was still awake but the things is i couldn't remember that... the last thing i remembered was playin the game n then waking up to the sound of the doctor calling my name. I lost alof of blood that day but i think someone up there loves me n i'm still up n about now..To the people who want to noe what my injuries are like, it's very very simple.... I fractured the left back of my skull and severed the nerves on the left side of my face which means that i can't smile, talk or blink properly with respect to my left side.... the right side's normal... still cheeky and all that so no worries... I'll have a op after christmas to try n get back my old smile n everything n i'm sure it'll work.. definitely... cuz now i can't hear that well with my left ear either cuz the blood clot and brain juices are stuck there somewhere... (really don't wanna think bout it)Lastly, i can't spend too long a time infront of the com cuz my left eye will get dry... cuz i can't blink heh.... oh well... but i would like to thank the people who kept me in their prayers and came to visit me when i was alone in the hospital.... those who gave me flowers.... stayed with me till visiting hours were way over... brought books to let me read.... I really appreciate all u guys n gals.... I owe u all man... I sure do... It's times like this that u realise many things in your life... I've realised a fair few things these few days... N i still have that really touched feeling... i really love the flowers!!!! haha.. so thanx Gerard, Melvin, Mike, Marcel, Li Yi, Kath, Ethel, Rynette, Uncle Martin, Micky, Nat, Neng, Jona, Jen, Church people and of course my dear parents... My daddy was so kind to give me a raise when i came out of hospital *grinz* I really appreaciate everythin you did... from the bottom of my heart... thanks!
3:00 AM
